The Lives Behind the Camera



My husband, held the camera.  He was so thankful this past Saturday morning.  He was happy that I was well.  He took us out to a beautiful nature walk.  And he  wanted to take my picture by these beautiful pink flowers.  What you don’t see is the ugly garbage can just to the left.  And that is important to remember in this story.


With so many opportunities to view media in many forms this day and age, I am wanting to be as real as I can about who I am.  I also, hope that others will remember that what we see on a screen is not everything.  Everything that we truly need to compare our lives to is included in the Book of Truth, the Holy Bible, Holy Scriptures, God’s Holy Word.  We find real people, sinners.  Struggles.  Aching bones.  Aching hearts.  And yet JOY.   Not absence of pain.  Joy in the midst of pain because of the working power of the Holy Spirit who lives in those who have been captivated by the Gracious Love of the Savior.  Hope, promise, and victory, through every trial, every heartache, every pain.  This is real life.

We ended up here. Celebrating God has given us another day. All of us so very thankful for Him lifting us up again.

When I share pieces of my life on media, it comes from a place of gratitude to my Savior.  My life was in shambles real bad at one time.  And I didn’t know how I would even go on and ever find joy. My heart overflows with JOY because of Christ ALONE and how He met me and has shown me that HE will give me everything I need through every step of this life.  My story is one of being delivered from the bondage of fear, praying for years for the longings and aches of my heart, pressing on through pain.  As well as answered prayers, God’s holy presence through it all.  Experiencing the continued transforming work of the Spirit in the life of my family.  Because we all have desperately needed it.   We all still desperately need Him.


Behind this camera is a story of three very special guys to me.  As well as one extremely special God.  For two  days I was stricken with pain. Body that ached, and my physical strength gone. I was down.  In my place of rest, unable to do much, this  is where God shows me all He is actively doing.  Before my very eyes  I see more answered prayers manifest vividly in the lives of my children and beyond.


another day to hold the hand of my Maximus’ 11 year old hand. Another day of answered prayers.


We continue to pray, and seek wisdom in bringing more days of healing for me, and  I am experiencing those.  As heart wrenching and painful are the difficulties of life,  it is through these times we have drawn closer to the Lord and been strengthened to new life, again and again.

Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;  perseverance, character; and character, hope.  And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.”  Romans 5:3-5


Another day to acknowledge the beauty of the Lord around us through His magnificent creation.


And awakening this beautiful morning with a break from the literal grey skies and rain, and seeing the sun.  I sat outside with my blanket soaking in the Lord and His Word.  He blessing me with the words of the Psalmist in his days of yes, “aching bones” he looked up and pressed on in the promises of God.


And this word:

Arise, shine;
For your light has come!
And the glory of the Lord is risen upon you.
For behold, the darkness shall cover the earth,
And deep darkness the people;
But the Lord will arise over you,
And His glory will be seen upon you.

Isaiah 60:1-2



So just as the trash can that you cannot see beside this picture, that isn’t so pretty to be included.  Let us not forget, the truth.  Life is hard.  And everything isn’t included in your friend’s media postings.  And it shouldn’t be.  “whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.. and the peace of God will be with you.”  Phil. 4:8-9


But I also appreciate the ways in which God will use my pain and trials to give Him the glory due His name!  He is my OVERCOMER!  “whatever you do, do all for the glory of God”  1 Cor. 10:31


Jesus is the answer.  And in spite of pain, we can have a life of joy when we belong to and place our trust in the Savior.  Even in our bleakest of circumstances as Christians we have this promise:

 ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”  Rev. 21:4


Not only did my husband and sons celebrate on this Saturday that I had been lifted up again.  Later that day we celebrated another life.  I was so thankful to be present to celebrate a birthday of a very special little girl.  She who has life in the Savior and new life with a healed lung as God’s breath anew in her.  Not only did we celebrate on Saturday, but Sunday.  Sunday celebrating JESUS is ALIVE – Resurrection Day!  It is because of the finished work of the cross and the resurrection of Jesus Christ that sinners can be saved and have victorious life!  IF we chose to repent, acknowledge HE is God, we are not, and ask Him to rule and reign our lives as we  follow Him all the days of our lives.


Each day I awake I ask my boys, why are you here today?  Who gave you breath again?

“The Spirit of God has made me;  the breath of the Almighty gives me life.”  Job 33:4

I have a special way in which God made me appreciate His breath.  Again through trial, God drew me closer.   “Life is a vapor”.  I witnessed through the birth of our firstborn son slipping away inside the womb, no breath in his lungs when entering this world, sustained by the mind of God given to man, through a machine to pump air for him, in the NICU on a ventilator God breathed life again.


Another day, and another day to acknowledge that HE is God and we need more of Him!


And on Saturday  was another day to LAUGH!   My husband’s energy has always given a spark to my life.  I see him being that for our Isaac and our whole family.  One photo that will not be shared.  My husband coaxing Isaac our 13 year old, to stop and smell the flowers together for the purpose of a REALLY hilarious picture.  This will be for us to keep for our memories.


May we remember the truth every day found on the pages of scripture.  Life!  Life that is hard because of sin for all mankind.  Life that can be victorious all because of the risen LIFE of the Savior!



You have turned my mourning into dancing for me…that my soul may sing praise to You and not be silent.  O Lord my God, I will give thanks to You forever.  Psalms 30:11-12





Morning Joy




It’s 8:30 am and What a JOY to see him at work in the FLOW of life, in the unique way God made him. Today he was so excited to show me his artwork and the colorful patterns he put together. In his happy place. And so am I as I get to tell him how much I love this, and even more a kiss on the head to say “I LOVE YOU”.


Learning is life and what a joy to be in these moments seeing him shine. As this plays:

“Holy Spirit, You are welcome here
Come flood this place and fill the atmosphere
Your glory, God, is what our hearts long for
To be overcome by Your presence, Lord..Let us become more aware of Your presence…” I thank GOD.

This is My Story

life 4When God gives me times to share bigger pieces, I might sound radical – because JESUS just is! Yet, really radical is what I read on the pages of scripture and of the men and women of faith. Stepping out into foreign lands and trusting in God. He directing their every step. Lives being affected for the Kingdom!

The radical story is THE King of heaven, humbling himself and coming to save and make a way for sinners to have LIFE. He raising from death to life. Radical.


Captivated by His love many years ago, yet HIS radical love keeps on pursuing His children. 14 years ago when I carried Isaac in the womb, and soon after Maximus, God put a vision in our hearts for revival in this land. The land that resided right in the hearts of this family. He would take our family on a journey we would have never imagined. Stepping away from all the world said was good, and stepped into deeper communing with Him. Transforming all of us.



Painful and yet JOY because the JOY of the Lord is our strength. On the other side of pain came NEW life in a zillion ways, over time, to our entire family. This journey, this story of HOPE against despair, Unfailing LOVE of the Father, Grace greater than all our sin and weakness, Mercy, Victory over the enemy! FREEDOM! And I tell the story to point to Who all glory, honor, belongs to – the ONE we celebrate LIFE in everyday – JESUS, JESUS, JESUS! heart emoticon He is definitely sooooo not finished with us yet.. He who has begun a good work will be faithful to complete it.



If I told you my story
You would hear hope that wouldn’t let go
If I told you my story
You would hear love that never gave up
If I told you my story
You would hear life but it wasn’t mine
If I should speak then let it be
Of the grace that is greater than all my sin
Of when justice was served and where mercy wins
Of the kindness of Jesus that draws me in
To tell you my story is to tell of Him
If I told you my story
You would hear victory over the enemy
If told you my story
You would hear freedom that was won for me
If I told you my story
You would hear life overcome the grave

Sing to the Lord



FOR some it is hard to sing. For some there is a missing link between good emotions inside and the ability to extend that outwardly, and connect it relationally. The brain connections. Or lack thereof. With God’s help, we can help make that connection. Most importantly we SING because GOD SAYS so…we can believe it in our minds – it’s good, I’ll do it. And pray for the Sprit to move deeper to the heartseat of emotion. But we also are given HIS WORD and I EXALT HIS HOLY NAME for leading me. Bridge that gap, make the connection.


1) Beaten and imprisoned, we can imagine they were scared and definitely in difficulty, Paul and Silas sang-they were set free! Acts 16:22-40
2)When God parted the red sea and overcame – Miriam sang a victory song! She was excited, thankful, joyous of what God had just done. Ex. 15:20-21
3)Sing, play music, when we feel happy and thankful. Eph. 5:18-20
We can stir up and remember the exact moments we had that feeling and think of it when we sing to Lord. (without this process there is a block – singing but no connection for purpose). But still sweet as in the sole purpose in obedience to God.
4)Music and singing pleases God. Some examples of God loving the praises so much, that filled the temple that His glory came down in a cloud: 2 Chron. 5:12,14 Ex. 40:34, 1 Kings 7:2
We stir up those personal moments and indentify that feeling!
5)So when we sing, we sing with those thoughts and feelings. Thoughts of He died for me-I am thankful. Remembering the victory God gave in doing well and recalling that intense feeling at that moment. Now connecting that together with singing,to thank Him.
6)and remember the song Sparrow on that blistery day out back. All it knows is to sing, sing, sing… through difficulty God’s creation sings!
7)and we can celebrate all the ways in which are acts of Worship to God. For there are many. Working heartily to the Lord. Keeping his commands. And in our heart joyfully offering service to others. 

When it feels hard to sing, remember Paul and Silas. They had it pretty hard, they chose to sing. AND WHAT HAPPENED WHEN THEY SANG? THERE WAS VICTORY! THEY WERE SET FREE! And what happens when we sing? There is victory!

4 Years Ago Our Lives Were Changed – We Celebrate!



There is a zillion emotions, words, and story that goes long and deep. But just simply looking at this picture, no one would know that. Except us.  Last night I spent a little time reflecting that March was the month that we walked out of the doctor’s office stunned by the harsh info. we just received. Reflecting on our beautifully hard and wonderful journey.


This morning, I melted in tears as  I read a facebook memory, realizing it was EXACTLY 4 years ago to the day- today, March 16, 2012.  I know God wants me to share this. I do share for HIS GLORY!


4 YEARS AGO I DESPERATELY yearned with every heart string of my being to understand our son. So that I could meet him there, help him find his special way in this world. I had written that day, and am blessed by reading the HOPE that I did hold onto. And the visions I had. To find a way for Isaac. It was a time of paring down my life and “being” with my family, eliminating distraction (even the great and Godly things).


There was anguish, tears, and still so many unknowns. “you will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart”. “call to me and I will answer you, and show you great and unsearchable things you do not know”. Jer. 33:3


Our lives have changed drastically since that day. And that is GOOD! WE all needed a change! We ALL needed a transformation. It wasn’t just Isaac that needed help. It was our entire family! We needed more of Jesus, less of the world, less of “ME”. We have gained that. And Isaac has gained much! Brain integration therapy, speech therapy, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, and more.  Those were just fancy terms to us for walking our children through life. Taking the concepts along with GOD’s word that is sharper than a two-edged sword and applying.


AFTERALL THE FINAL WORDS FROM THE SPECIALISTS AS WALKED AWAY… “KEEP DOING WHAT YOU ARE DOING” AND IN THE HARSH BROKEN DOWN REPORT, THE BEAUTY THAT SHINED FORTH WAS CONFIRMATION FROM GOD… AS THE RECOMMENDATION IN SO MANY TERMS (be near him, and walk and talk him through every scenario of life, and repeat) THE EXACT COMMAND OF GOD WE HAD ALREADY SET OUR HEARTS ON: “These commandments that I give you today are to be on your hearts. Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up. Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates.” Deut. 6:6-8


This picture I share…. IT’S SPECIAL.   As I laid resting and a bit under the weather the other day. Our boys were given a packet of studies to work through. I rested, I GOT BLESSED. Watching these two, side by side, working heartily with focus, with joy. Responsible, with peace and calm. Isaac flipping through the pages of scripture to find info. (just that alone would send him through the roof with anxiety). Both of them together. Maximus always wanting to be by his brother side. Maximus participating in Brain Integration Therapy because he just wanted to be with brother. Maximus helping his brother on a stuck question this day in not understanding what he was reading. Then Isaac sitting with Maximus to help him finish his work.   Once upon a time, Isaac didn’t have the peace to even unravel his own stuff… but now the peace and ability to not only handle his own but to come alongside and help another???  AMAZING!  Maximus listening and focused. The two of them fully engaged in learning, and just being. And goodness… they flowed as I GOT TO LAY AND REST AND BE BLESSED.


IT’s SO WORTH IT! For all the days that I felt like I was going to drop over dead, Christ JESUS my Savior resurrected me again and again, and HE HAS DONE WONDERFUL THINGS!!! NOT TO US, BUT TO YOUR NAME BE THE GLORY OH LORD!


“my little children, for whom I labor in birth again until Christ is formed in you.” Gal. 4:19




of kindness
Because of grace
Because someone cared
because someone shared and gave of theirs
I CAN FLY!!!!!
Because of Jesus
Because of His love
Because every gift comes from the Father above
Because “Jesus loves me”
the beginning of his life song we sang


Because “I am fearfully and wonderfully made.”
Because God has a plan
and in His time
He makes all things beautiful
I CAN FLY!!!!!
“Not to us, LORD, not to us but to your name be the glory,
BECAUSE of your love and faithfulness” Psalm 115:1

“but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles”

Isaiah 40:31


Giver of every breath I breathe
Author of all eternity

Giver of every perfect thing
To You be the glory

Isaac – Pediatric Stroke Survivor – CP, Left Hemi “in 30 years of delivering sick babies I’ve only seen two survive, one other child and your son” – “God has some kind of special plan for your son” `Walmart Photographer Isaac 6. mo. old. Christian taking a step of faith, believing God was showing her something special to speak encouragement I would need for the journey and days ahead. “Isaac you inspire me, you make me want to work harder” ~mother from the bleachers who came down to tell him this after his game. God is so good.

Maker of Heaven and of earth
No one can comprehend Your worth
King over all the universe
To You be the glory

And I am alive because Im alive in You

And its all because of Jesus Im alive
Its all because the blood of Jesus Christ
It covers me and raised this dead man’s life
Its all because of Jesus Im alive, Im alive, Im alive

Read more: Casting Crowns – All Because Of Jesus Lyrics | MetroLyrics







We Sing!

singI love to hear the song sparrow sing in our backyard. I love to watch BOTH our boys with JOY and wonder and awe view the little song sparrow, sitting on fence, feathers ruffled in the somewhat fierce wind, gladly singing away. I love to point our boys to the joy in this happening as it sings to the Creator. I love to see the connection that “if a little birdie enjoys singing in the midst of difficult wind, wow, how much more the Father will love my singing”.


I love to hear BOTH our boys sing “Good Good Father that’s Who You Are, I am loved by You, that’s who I am”- one in his sweetly DEEP voice and the other well not so deep (yet) and oh so sweet ,). I LOVE GOD’s WORD and the FIRE it it ignites when we obey.


IF you know our story, you know why this would BE such an EXTRA sweet time. Let’s just say, the Word tells us it is good to sing to the Lord. And when we sing, simply out of obedience because God’s words says “It is good” (ps. 147:1) even like the beautiful sparrow sang in the midst of the “difficulty” SWEET things manifest.


But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love… Ps. 59:16

I Will Lead the Blind


Harry our elderly pup is starting to go blind (a bit). He still loves his walks. His master Isaac leads the partly blind boy, getting him back on the path when he wanders off, warns him and lifts him up when he can’t quite “SEE” the hurdle ahead. He guides him on the journey, he knows Harry is trusting him. Guarding, protecting, and showing him the right way.


THE LORD gave me this verse as I snapped this photo: I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them. Is. 42:16


-A joy to see these two connect – it’s unique and special. Harry hears the sweetest whispers of affirmation and love, compassion, and instruction, and feels the warmth of the loving touch.


God’s WORD is SUCH A TREASURE. And through this journey with our sons, we have learned this in GREATER understanding. I SHARE FOR THE GLORY OF THE LORD to BRING HOPE. Cause my greatest hope is for my sons to CONNECT with the LORD and have a relationship with HIM. And this DAY was a GIFT again to come home break open this verse and SEE THE UNDERSTANDING of our relationship with the LORD and HE BEING THE LIGHT.


And through daily captivating our moments together and bringing scripture right along with us – UNDERSTANDING IS COMING. DEEPER AND DEEPER. Neurology glitches can push down those connections… GOD’s HOLY WORD IS POWER TO CHANGE! We SEE IT! Let’ US BELIEVE IT!!!!

Rainbow On A Cloudy Day



The rainbow. A sign of God’s faithfulness to His Word, His promises, including the promise to protect His own.

Maximus created this Lego rainbow with great joy, after spotting one at home the other day.   As I read the Word this morning, it hit me, how special this creation was-as it followed dark days and troubling events and he was prompted to create this beauty that he took in from the skies.


The rainbow, the background setting to Isaac and his neighborhood friend playing basketball that day. I cannot help but connect a few days prior when basketball was played in this same spot with many of the regulars who come, and the incredibly difficult events that took place.


But I also cannot help but connect God’s faithful Word that is penetrating the heart, mind and soul and becoming USEFUL in our son. As difficult as the scenario for a mother to see, was the most beautiful gift manifest through the reactions, attitudes and behavior of my son.


Let’s just remember. My son, a pediatric stroke survivor was given a diagnosis in so many terms would make processing life incredibly challenging. I share for the GLORY of GOD – because the way in which our son walked through this difficult scenario, with self-control, enduring for a time, asserting himself in the right measure this is the work of God. And only accomplished through daily applying His word over and over to our children.


His ability to process wrong done to him, righteous anger expressed in right measure, genuine forgiveness, praying for those who “spitefully use you”, as well as love has boundaries, and the ability to “let go” for the sake of demonstrating love, and standing for righteousness, and trusting simply in God for His provision, with full circle peace – that is God Who is able to do more than we could ever imagine.


One “boy” whose habitual way is kindness and respect is welcome to come and play ball with Isaac.  It had been raining on the two of them, when the sun broke out slightly and the rainbow appeared. With the background of a rainbow reminding us God is with us. He is faithful to His Word, faithful to His promises, and always protects His own.


It’s reminder of God sitting on His Holy throne.  So loving to give us a rainbow in the midst of dark clouds and rainy days.  A God so bright and beautiful watching over His children.  Faithful to His Word.  A reminder to keep abiding in His word as our minute by minute sustenance, help and strength.  He is with us!


“And He who sat there on the throne…there was a rainbow around the throne…  And His countenance was like the sun shining in it’s strength”  Rev. 4:3 and Rev. 10:1


How would I describe my son on that dark day?

“Those who cleanse themselves…. will be instruments for special purposes, made holy, USEFUL to the Master and prepared to do any good work. Flee the evil desires of youth and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart. Don’t have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels. And the Lord’s servant must not be quarrelsome but must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. Opponents must be gently instructed, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will.” 2 Timothy 2:21-26



Present and with us.  Shining forth with His strength.  A gift of the rainbow to remind us HE is indeed on His throne.  Sovereign, ruler over our lives.



Harsh World – Outside Our Doors – Strength from the River

Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, And whose hope is the Lord. For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters, Which spreads out its roots by the river, And will not fear[a] when heat comes; But its leaf will be green, And will not be anxious in the year of drought, Nor will cease from yielding fruit. Jer. 17:7


Stricken with deep emotion. I can hardly describe. We painted these pictures 2 weeks ago. Little did I know I would be reminded of this verse and this picture be used to encourage my son this past week.

It only takes one step, outside the walls of this home for our children to be in the “world”.


With caution and a whole lot of prayer and walking minute by minute in His plan, we watch our Isaac play ball with these boys from our neighborhood.  Two years and counting… we have loved, created boundaries, forgiven again and again.  Isaac has served them graciously, coming into our home and gladly bringing them a cup of fresh water.  It has been a training ground for our son with us right by him every step of the way. It has been a time to share Jesus love.   It has had some moment of immense blessing!  And it has had it’s difficulties.


Seasons change. And there is a time for everything.


My heart was initially grieved by the cruelness of the world toward my son last week.  It happened in a blink of an eye.   I can certainly imagine the things that would take place to damage our sons soul had he been out in the world in it’s fullness from  earliest of days.  I am thankful for God rescuing us from that plan very early on, and putting us here all these years.  Equipping our children with love day in and out to give them strength to become one day the strong men God desires them to be.


My heart was grieved at what the boys had done to him. It happened so fast. I had turned away to do laundry but a few moments when I looked and saw. He enduring the harassment, with verbal assertion, said stop it several times with a strong, firm voice – and no one cared. There was laughing and mocking from the bystanders, and one child leaving muddy prints all over his body.


After enduring, he approached one boy and did something to get his attention. Grabbing his shirt and pushing him back in simple force. Just enough to get his attention.  This same boy proceeded to attempt to provoke him more, “you want to fight?”. That was not Isaac’s desire. He wanted relationship, he wanted peace. And yet Isaac wasn’t going to stand for the unrighteousness any longer. Asserting his voice to tell the boy (who was running to our backyard to flee) “get out of my yard”.


The fierce love of Dad soon was out the door and put an end to the matter.  Stunned looks,  moving fast to pick up their belongings and be gone.  We are walking into a new season.


Isaac’s greatest concern was wanting to hear that he “did okay out there”. HE wanted to know it was okay that he felt angry. That he handled things in a right balance.  His great effort to get someone’s attention without going too far and yet not being pummeled for no good reason except for mean intentions on the heart of another.   And yet I believe he handled it beautifully.  And his mission was accomplished. A sense of peace washed over our boy, hearing he had done well.  We had worked for years with settings on a hair dryer to explain levels of emotions.  Walking and talking through life scenarios over and over to help him learn how to interact in right measure with the issues of life.  Along with the Word of God and what He calls us to.  And lots of prayer.


Real love.  Involves  forgiveness, getting one’s attention for the things that are ungodly and making a statement this is not okay, and boundaries. That’s a lot for any 13 year old boy to comprehend. But the Spirit is alive. And these years of pouring truth into his life is paying off. This is a child who by the “world” said, “we have never seen such slow processing in a child”. Yet God’s Word is power. And He saves.


Our son was the strong tree in the “dessert” this day. He endured the heat, and like Jesus troubled over unrighteousness in the temple, Isaac was standing up for righteousness. We studied Jesus’ emotions and feelings a few weeks ago. One of these was anger. A holy anger. IN the temple when it was being abused. Jesus got their attention, in right measure to make a statement, “this is not okay”.


Do you know what a joy it is to this mama to see what I see? I am blown away at God’s miracle touch on our son.

Peaceable. Firm words. And in dealing with it all, he remained calm, in control, and in the perfectly right measure got the attention of those around. “this is not okay”.


MY Isaac, the strong tree in the dessert. Stricken by heat. And grows stronger. He was hurt momentarily.  “We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair;  persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.”  2 Cor. 4:8  His connection to the love of Jesus the River of life sustains him, and only produces more growth.   He is strengthened by the encouragement  he was immediately filled with as he came back into our home.   He was assured we are here to protect him.  Stand by him, and show him how love needs to let go and let God, as we pray for Him to take the seeds that have been planted to grow in the lives we spent time with for a season.


There was a lot of blessing in these days spent with these boys.  We experienced some much needed character shaping in our own children in these small doses of opportunity.  The Lord doing a refining work in our own need for sanctification.  We were blessed to serve our neighbors as well. My husband playing ball with them.  I enjoyed moments to bake up a quick treat and an ice cream gathering in our backyard.  We told them about Jesus in opportunities that presented here and there.  Both our boys also  SEEING, SEEING and believing , the realities of the things we have shared with them about the difficulties of this world, what God has said and warned us of.   They are SEEING these important and valuable lessons at this young age, that makes them appreciate the Lord and His ways.   God has their heart.


When they come to play again, as if nothing ever happened, my husband will be the one to speak with them (so thankful for him!!) and explain many important things they need to hear, including why our days of playing together here have come to an abrupt hault.   They need a heart change.  They need Jesus.  There is a pattern,  and it will only continue until they see their need for Him.  In love they will be warned.  We pray one day  repentance and salvation will come. “for all have sinned and fall short of His glory”  Rom. 3:23.  We are grateful for our salvation.  We want that desperately for the world.  It will be our opportunity to love them. Extend forgiveness, demonstrate  that true love, God’s love, has boundaries, limits.  We need to stand on those, in righteousness for the glory of the king.


Jesus is overcoming in our son.   And that is a message I want to relay here.  Nothing is impossible with God.  To stand confident, so strong, to endure, to get their attention, to walk back in our house and see the sweetness of forgiving love flow from him, and the desire to “pray for those who spitefully use you”.  To understand and see and live out true forgiveness, true love that involves boundaries and orders, true love that didn’t pummel and beat down the other, but in right measure got his friend’s attention and warns… “This is not how you live, this is not okay”.



“Those who cleanse themselves…. will be instruments for special purposes, made holy, useful to the Master and prepared to do any good work. Flee the evil desires of youth and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart. Don’t have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels. And the Lord’s servant must not be quarrelsome but must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. Opponents must be gently instructed, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will.” 2 Timothy 2:21-26



It’s time to stand for righteousness and extend our love by praying.



More than Scrambled Eggs



It was not all that long ago, he struggled to do anything in our kitchen without a panic attack setting in. Even me giving a simple word like a “cupboard” or “sink”, the immense strain to recall what that was would overwhelm.

So today, when I asked him to show his brother how. I was ONLY expecting the shells to be removed and eggs in bowl.

To my unexpected surprise, I was presented with the finished product.  Over and over I had taught Isaac to make scrambled eggs.  He hadn’t yet, ever done it all from beginning to end on his own.

He went the extra mile today,  and taught his brother from beginning to end to make scrambled eggs!

It takes a lot to be a great teacher. A whole lot of the fruits of the Spirit.  “love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness, and self-control”. A child who used to strain to do so much, is now filled with so much and able to teach like a true teacher!

Abide in Me… apart from me you can do nothing.  John 15:5

We are still overcoming. It is only through this gift of life here together minute by minute in relationship with the Father and one another.

This is a tiny story about eggs. But really it is about a whole story of 13 years of life. With a brain affected by stroke. Brain that controls our thinking, our moving, our relating.   And our God who is LORD over all!  Walking with Jesus, walking with our children,  and holding onto His word above all else.  “I have put my hope in your word” Ps. 119:14


Which has called me to walk, teach, train, my children morning, noon, night, showing them the way… most importantly to relationship with God in everything we do, for his glory.  Deut. 6:6-9  and 1 Cor. 10:31

I want to bring HOPE.  And at 13 I am thankful, that Isaac is graciously sweet to say “mom, it’s fine to share this with others.”  As I explain how the testimony of God’s ability may just encourage some other mama out there.

He remembers some and some he doesn’t.  I am thankful for some of his greatest struggles he does remember.  And that he does remember prayer, God’s word, and our family walking him through each time to victory is how he is overcoming.


With every victory, let it be said of me, my source of strength, my source of HOPE is CHRIST ALONE!