There is something truly exhilarating sitting by my boys’ side, learning a new math concept that requires many steps, he is overwhelmed, to remedy that anxiety, for weeks I speak every single step to him, he follows along.
Most parts he is in the dark about. He doesn’t understand what I am telling him, or the why’s of it all. Me being that extra part of his brain that he isn’t able to process at the time, I reassure him “it might not make sense now, but eventually you will see”. Then expecting to go at it again yesterday, I look over and realize he has accomplished it all on his own. He can now see! He now understands!
Many reasons this is special to me. Mostly I think because it speaks all about relationship. First, the immense privilege and joy I have in this relationship with my Pediatric Stroke Survivor – he wasn’t expected to live at birth. But of course both our sons in walking them through life. This resonates so deeply as the relationship with our Heavenly Father. The vital importance of listening to His every word, receiving the instruction, how it remedies our anxiety. Often not understanding the why’s of what we are being called to do, the steps we must take. Just trusting and doing.
As we walk by faith by His every Word He speaks to us, directs our steps. (A person’s steps are directed by the Lord. How then can anyone understand their own way? Prov. 20;24) Not seeing, it doesn’t make sense. Yet believing His love runs deep on our behalf, we trust, obey, we achieve victory.
Whether we eventually see it all so clearly here and now, or later in eternity, we will SEE. And in my walk with the Lord for many years, I can testify to a million beautiful things HE has blessed me to eventually SEE, still here and now on this earth, as I walk this journey. Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed (John 20:29).
I am thankful for this life with both our boys. My youngest will often say, “mom I know you love me and I know how you prayed fervently for us and to be our mom”.
I am thankful for my Heavenly Father. Whose love never fails and never gives up on me. For boys, now ages 11 and 13, like all of mankind, one time or another in our lives, have struggled with instruction, obedience, trust. Resistance in those earlier years. With my boys in MANY forms and creative ways. Back then, the days of instruction was in a different form. Shaping the character of their hearts, preparing them for these days in instructing them in new ways. I too, in my walk with God in my immaturity, have resisted God’s instruction and done just the same as my little children. God shaping my character and preparing me for greater things. As we grow in our relationship, submission, we understand the love more and more, we see the reward of following those instructions. There is a peace that rules. God is reigning.
And ultimately what I desire, that through the instruments of mom and dad, the hands and feet of Jesus, in instructing our sons, as we point to HIM daily as our provision – the Spirit will make Himself more and more known to them… as they learn to TRUST HIM!
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instruction. Listen, my son, to your father’s instruction and do not forsake your mother’s teaching.
Prov. 1:7-8.
