You know I can look back on so many things that I waited longer than I wanted to for. I see again, now, what God has been busy doing. Being faithful, as He says He is, to complete His work in me, in us/our family. I am experiencing, in the waiting and in His timing, He makes all things beautiful as He promises. Like the “point” in my own life, of waiting, waiting, waiting, is He wanting to refine me and show me HIS great LOVE for me – because each time I have waited, however difficult and painful at the time it has been (and most painful because of my own “self” and my weak/sinful finite wisdom not recognizing the wisdom of God that is infinite!!!), I can look back and see how He was doing a much needed work in me, humbling me, and setting me freer, drawing me deeper into communion with Him. And ultimately Him pointing me to HIM and ridding me of myself and the things of this world…and pointing me to a deeper place of focus on eternity where there is so much more beauty to behold everyday. Making life all about HIM and the glory due His name. Him ridding me of “myself” (and yes, I confess I didn’t always just enter into this without momentary kickn’ & screamin’) in order to bring so much more joy, gratitude, and contentment in this life. I am reflecting on a particular scenario at this moment, and standing in AWE of how good He has been to us, in taking us through what seemed a lonely, trial, and seeing how truly loving He has been, showing me how foolish I can be, yet seeing HOW faithful and loving He is to His children. For when I get to this place…
as the song goes…
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost
Lead me to the cross where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees, Lord, I lay me down
Rid me of myself, I belong to You
Oh, lead me, lead me to the cross
And when I truly surrender to His design. The specific design of our family, and His call, I am able to see more clearly how deep His love is for me… as the song goes:
Your love is like radiant diamonds
Bursting inside us we cannot contain
Your love will surely come find us
Like blazing wild fires singing Your name
God of mercy sweet love of mine
I have surrendered to Your design
May this offering stretch across the skies
And these Halleluiahs be multiplied
And then I am overwhelmed once again afresh and anew as this song goes..
I see the work of Your Hands
Galaxies spin in a Heavenly dance oh God
All that You are is so overwhelming
I delight myself in You
Captivated by Your beauty
I’m overwhelmed, I’m overwhelmed by You
God, I run into Your arms
Unashamed because of mercy
I’m overwhelmed, I’m overwhelmed by You
I know the power of Your Cross
Forgiven and free forever You’ll be my God
All that You’ve done is so overwhelming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love that song because it is so true about our Jesus:)